what should i do?
I simply have no courage to tell that i do fail again for the second time..
Should i just kill myself so that those people are not ashamed of me?
Should i jump off the cliff to demonstrate that i have fell down again?
Or perhaps i should slit my body to demonstrate how i cannot stand myself again..
Should i just drink all those pills to finally rest from the pain of disappointing the people i dearly love?
Or maybe i should hang myself up there.. to demonstrate that i do want to put myself 'among the stars' aim high.. right?
well, what do i feel now?
I should say i am 1% relief and 99% hurt. Since this is my second time, i am conviced now that the most hurtful thing you can ever feel is you hurt those who care about you and they simply say that they understand and again just letting it slip to the past and still open their arms to embrace you with the warmest heart.
what will i do?
i know what i should not do, that is all those i have said earlier above. This is what i should think about now:
Romans 5: 3-5 "Not only that, we also boast even in trials, knowing that trials produce patience, from patience comes merit, merit is the source of hope, and hope does not dissapoint us because the Holy Spirit has been given to us, pouring into our hearts the love of God"
posted by awampolitik at 2:53 PM
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7:59 PM
I really hope you don't do the things described above.
I heard a guy who failed at committing suicide last week talk about how happy he was he failed.
He said, "Tomorrow is another day to fix things, and tough times never every last" to encourage those thinking about suicide to think a second time.
I thought these sounded like platitudes, but he said he thought they'd help.
Also, are you Catholic?
8:00 PM
hey there jb,
i havent done any of the things above and should not be doing any of them any time soon,
thnx for the comment as well :D
also, i am a catholic (just recently become one) :D
7:07 AM
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