sigh.. how to put this down.
i am still sad, and i am supposed to feel sad
why dont you all stop telling me to not be sad.
stop comforting me,
those efforts just hurt me even more
now i am trying to look alright,
stop asking me if i am alright..
give me the time, it heals..

ps. The hardest thing i find for now is to move on. Each time i am about to take a step, a thing or two reminds me that my last step results in a total disappointment. Just now, a chance greets me and i have an opportunity. It may not be to erase my previous step from my whole journey, but it is an opportunity to take a big step to catch up with my fellow comrades.

so it is really true.. Hope does not disappoint us