it seems this blog is not just gonna contain many random things i originally thought it would..
it seems during these times, i am sailing through the harder times.

let's see, u know one reason why it is a hard time,
others i can not say in detail, but i have this question i want to ask someone:

"why do you give up when the other day you were the one that told me to keep trying?"

and to the same person i want to ask:

"why wont you forgive? one will make a mistake because one is not perfect. why dont you forgive??"

and to the same person i want to say:

i do not see why you should believe them when you dont even try to believe in those that are 'closer' to you, why do you want to take advice from those that are interested in your problem to gossip about it, why do you tell your stories to those you should never trust?? i remember you were one of those that told me i should be careful with whom i share my stories and that i should avoid certain groups of people. why do you tell them?? why do you tell those people that threaten others to get money and put justice label all over them??? why do you trust them and give them a chance?? i do not see why you are doing all this at the same time you are shutting yourself from those that really care about you and simply not giving a damn chance!


i am not only disappointed in myself, i am hurt because i am also disappointed in you