there is a very good reason why i am not one of those world known sports person. for one, my heart races just by watching those people on their matches!!
anywayz congratulate to Roddick who played superbly to win the AAMI classic.. u r too good! :D (of course Federer is exceptional too.. but Roddick kept on hanging on and managed to pull through.. well done)

another congratulation goes to a friend who just managed to find a partner to share the good and the bad with :D so happy for you guys!!
this really brings back memories.. well one time i was writing something for you.. just an appreciation comment for being a friend who was around for a bit. anyway as i was writing there was this girl who mentioned to me 'why do you cover with your hand as you write on that paper? it is not as if i will try to read it..relax!'
well the thing is.. it is not really until today that i reflect on this and i think.. wait a minute for you to asked me that ..you must be bothered by the fact i was covering it!! and plus she was not close at all to me anyways so i find it awkward now that she even commented on that..

also to another friend who might feel slightly sad.. there is a season for eveything, for you it might just be around the corner!! :D

last but not least, soon i will have my sup paper.. please by any means divert all your good lucks to me and pray for me :D good day, people!

it seems lately the conversation i have will one or twice mentioned the word marriage.. wat the??

anyways something which was discussed today is:
how we are not supposed to be too picky and not supposed to be picking eveything that comes your way!

i cannot believe that i am still 20 and i hear the word marriage everywhere already... i just cant imagine if i am not yet married by the age of 28 or 29, maybe it will be haunting me then.. by hearing, reading and by visions.. (hey dont have those dirty thoughts once i mention the word visions.. hahaha, what i mean is the visions of those that have hands they can hold on to.. or those that have crossed the word lonely from their vocabularies).

to everyone - may we all find happiness where ever it is we are looking at.. both alone and attached. hahahahaha have great night people..

sometimes you tell stories or you express yourself in a non obvious way, not because you do not want to be noticed feeling what ever it is you are feeling, but you want to see who can see right through you.. who can predict you! and if ever that person is found, you will watch carefully whether s/he will comfort you or if s/he is stupid enough to not only notice but damage you even further with outrageous comments. a joke?? yeah well.. it was over so get over it!!

ask yourself this question: are you comfortable if what ever you said to one is going to be said to you by another? are you going to be hurt by your very own words?

if everytime you are hurting people and afterwards you are trying to make up with the lame excuse of "joking" , get real! if you can be the joke all the time and not being hurt by being one, then perhaps you have the right to put the joke spotlight on your friend.. if not, please be damn considerate and be a little more sensitive of others' feelings!! Afterall, being a friend is not to pluck a feather a day from your friend's wings!!

pissed?? damn right i am pissed!
ok.. nice to get it out! i am going to be calm again for now.. :D *smash tables*

i hate awkward moments!

the time when i did wrong, and one showed his/her reaction too obviously
seriously.. i do not mean it!!! i too realise my weakness and perhaps it is also wrong of me not to tell you how truly sorry i am for being incapable of doing such a simple task! and of course for ruining the moment with the awkwardness! dont mind me.. i may be overanalysing the situation itself.. hahaha well, i am not close to you so you may have not been able to translate the sorry look in my eyes .. so here we go, i am sorry.
despite your insensitivity, i managed to look at a glimpse of disappointment.. one you might not have realised you displayed and for that i could not think of an appropriate reaction, so for that i am sorry too..
sigh.. i recognize that one of those flaws i have is that i may be too sensitive towards the effect i have on others.. esp the effect of my mistakes! so, this is one of those characters i have in myself that i am getting accustomed to.. i hope i can manage it well soon!!
for many of the awkward moments i may be involved in later in our friendship, i am sorry and i will try to think of an appropriate reaction i can adopt in such time.

went to sandringham beach (read: the sandringham desert) .. well the wind was so strong the sand just flew everywhere with such high speed that it hurt our skin when it came into contact with us.. seriously, a lesson for the trip: do not go to a beach when the weather man is predicting that there is a possible storm on its way!! hahaha.. ok we are silly, but isnt life more fun when you dont take it seriously? hahaha.. *optimistic mode on*

anwyayz, after the trip.. my friend actually walked me home first, as we were about to walk by my apartment to a little street near by where my friend will go home, a man came up to us and asked us how to get to flinders street so we explained to him thoroughly how it was about 4 blocks to get there. the shocking thing was he asked us after that "would you mind coming with us to show how to get there?"

wat the hell is wrong with you?? #)%*@&^)@&@)&^#)@#!! of course we mind! bloody hell! i wonder if there is such a person who would not mind! i can be nice but i do not think i will be that gullible!! anyways, of course i did not say all the things mentioned, i told him i had to go home because my brother is waiting for me to get home. thankfully i was not alone.. and thankfully i was not stupid enough (i dont think i will ever be that stupid anyway).

a lesson for the day: do not be gullible!! it is always better to be save than regret!!