this time i feel like the time is not being kind to me, it reveals itself not as a continuous thing but i can only see one band then there is a gap before there is another band of time. could it be because i am going blind? have i shut myself down to see and feel most things?
this time it is midyear, as if reminding me in every breath i take that i am too in the middle.
in the middle of nothingness
in the middle of nowhere
in the middle of uncertainties
in the middle of tangled thoughts
in the middle of suppressed feelings
am i currently in the gap of time? will i ever be able to see time again as a continuous thing again? then maybe i will not be so lost..